A Black Man's Abyss


This is my inner voice. A retelling of the crazy ride that life has taken me on. Names have been changed to protect the characters mentioned.


  1. Not mine to love

    I wake up everyday looking forward to meet you as if my life depends on it. I look forward to the taste of your lips, the sweet scent of your perfume. I look forward to my heart racing as i hold close & tightly. I look forward to making you…


  2. My Zimbabwean Queen

    "I love you" My heart skipped a beat when she said those words. Not because I didn’t want to hear them - I’d been dying to hear those words. It was because I was afraid - let me explain. By now we’ve established that…


  3. Remember me

    How will the world remember me when I’m gone? Will anyone remember me as the compassionate man i fool myself into believing I am? Will they spit on my grave & say good riddance? Will flags fly at half mast? Will scandals erupt as unknown lovers & children…


  4. Hello Princess

    Hie. It feels weird to say hie now - I’ve dreamed of doing so for ages. Now it feels inadequate for the occasion. I feel like I know you but I know I don’t. How could I? Let me clear my thoughts and start again. I…


  5. New Dawn

    There was something different about this morning. I woke up and felt…​ happy, at peace. I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I had become so used to the burden that I didn’t realize it still existed. Today I can…


  6. Lonely road

    I feel the dread coming on like a thick cloud. My heart races as I try to brace myself for the storm to come. I try, I fail. I’m afraid of being alone. Scared of being swallowed by the deep black pool inside me, scared of nothingness. What…


  7. It's Saturday

    I can tell. Not because of the relaxed demeanor in the office as we anticipate half the normal working hours, nor is it because of the food outlets that are more crowded than usual. No. My attention is drawn by the groups of youths that flood our streets whenever this…


  8. Sensational

    My heart was pounding as I went up the stairs. I had one focus, one goal, one mission. I took a deep breath and opened the door. Dear Lord…​ She looked stunning. This wasn’t going to make my day any easier. The perfect temptress sitting within…

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  9. Ground Zero Pt 1

    'Welcome to South Africa' - I had seen that sign countless times, heard the phrase in numerous contexts and in non of them was it sincere. After waiting at the border for what seemed like an eternity we were finally on our way to Johannesburg. I checked the date in…

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  10. Bae

    mmmm…​ She’s good I haven’t really smiled in a long time. I’m not sure if it’s been fear of falling or a reluctance to fly That’s all changed now I’ve found my release and she’…

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